TORNADO MEETS VOLCANO

Aku tahu waktunya sudah tiba,

Ternyata cinta yang menggelegak tak akan pernah cukup,

Untuk mengalahkan keakuanmu,

Amarah dan amarah membentuk pusaran yang berputar kencang menyentuh dan melukai dasar hati,

Saling pengertian sudah menjadi puing-puing yang terlempar semakin menjauh,

Gairah yang aktif menggelora bergerak perlahan, menjadi separuh aktif, istirahat, sebelum akhirnya
menjadi mati.

Sulit untuk menebak perasaan ini apakah hampa atau mati,

Magma cinta, kasih sayang, pengertian, kebohongan, cemburu, amarah, keakuan, bercampur hingga kian memuncak akhirnya meletus keluar seolah aliran lava untuk kemudian menghancurkan hati,

Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano*, kekasihku...

Walau aku tahu waktunya sudah tiba untuk kita,

Sungguh aku tak ingin...



*dari lyric I Love The Way You Lie – Eminem ft Rihanna


 (11Project11days #9 @nulisbuku)  

MEMANG AKU CEMBURU

Cemburuku adalah kesalmu,

Mengapa sayang?
Cemburu itu indah,
Dalam setiap denyutnya.

Nikmati saja gundahku,
Nikmati saja rajukanku,
Nikmati saja amarahku,
Amarah yang walau tampak bisa,
Namun sesungguhnya tak akan bisa membunuh apapun,
Kecuali membunuh amarah itu sendiri,
Amarah ini hanya sesaat,
Lalu kosong,
Sesudah itu akan menggelegak bahagia,

Amarah ini ada karena ada aku, kamu, dan bukan aku dan kamu,
Cemburu ini ada karena ada aku, kamu, dan bukan aku dan kamu,

Katamu kamu selalu berdiri dibalik pintu,
Pintu yang tak terkunci namun tertutup tak bercelah,
Jadi kamu tetap tak terlihat kan sayang?
Ya, kamu memang mengetuk, tapi pelan sekali,
Kamu tidak pernah memanggil,
Jantungmupun seolah berhenti bergemuruh,
Jadi mana aku bisa dengar?
Bagaimana aku bisa tahu?

 (11Project11days #8 @nulisbuku) 

MENARILAH BERSAMAKU, PATRONUSKU

"If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again" – Luther Vandross

Melihat dua putri kecilku bermain bersama ayahnya, seolah melihat bayangan diriku disana, bersama sosok yang tidak pernah berhenti aku rindukan, yang sampai detik ini aku selalu berkata pada semua orang, papaku hanya pergi sebentar untuk tidur yang panjang tapi sangat sebentar...

Suatu hari nanti papa akan menjemputku lagi dari tempat kerjaku, mengajakku makan nasi jamblang kesukaan kami berdua, berlama-lama di toko buku, bercerita tentang kejadian di hari itu, memasakan makanan kesukaanku dan akan marah apabila tidak aku habiskan.

Aku rindu bermanja-manja padanya, disuapi saat sudah hampir terlambat bekerja, membopongku ke tempat tidur saat ketiduran di sofa sehabis nonton Meteor Garden, rindu suara dehemannya saat pacarku pulang kemalaman, mendengarkan instrumen biola berdua, menemaniku les biola, diam-diam mengikuti bis yang mengantarku ke acara karyawisata, menungguku di teras rumah sampai aku pulang diantar pacarku setiap Sabtu malam, menghiburku dengan menyanyikan lagu Waltzing Matilda sambil menari-nari dan berputar-putar hingga kepalaku pusing.

Senyumannya, tawanya, bernyanyi dengan suara keras, kemarahannya, nasihat-nasihat yang dulu sering aku abaikan, semuanya, aku ingin merasakannya lagi.

Bagiku, papaku bukan hanya sekedar ayah atau sahabat, beliau adalah patronusku! Pemberi kekuatan positif seperti perisai yang mengusir kekuatan negatif, mengusir kesedihanku, mengusir kegusaranku.

Patronus yang entah bagaimana cara mendatangkannya. Bukankah cara memanggil patronus adalah dengan memikirkan kenangan yang sangat membahagiakan, kenangan indah yang melekat sangat kuat? Yang tak cukup sampai mengingat, tetapi membiarkan kenangan tersebut membawa merasuk kedalamnya?

Tak sulit rasanya bagiku untuk mengingat-ingat peristiwa yang paling membahagiakan, yang paling menyenangkan, sekalipun aku sedang berada dalam emosi tersulit, dalam kesedihan mendalam maupun saat kesulitan datang mendera. Karena bagiku semua hariku bersama papaku, sang patronus itu sendiri, adalah hari-hari yang selalu membuat hatiku membuncah bahagia.

Haruskah aku berteriak “Expecto Patronum” berkali-kali? Atau menyanyikan Waltzing Matilda sampai suaraku serak untuk memanggilnya?

Papa, lihatlah dua putriku yang belum pernah memanggilmu kakek, mereka pasti suka sekali ber-waltzing matilda bersamamu, mereka tidak akan keberatan untuk berputar-putar sampai pusing dan kelelahan, hingga nantinya harus kaubopong ke kamar tidur seperti diriku dulu....

Papa, aku menunggumu untuk mengajak kami menari...EXPECTO PATRONUM!!! Aku menunggumu, pelindungku!

 Ya Tuhan, sungguh malam ini aku kangen sekali...

 (11Project11days #7 @nulisbuku)

Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 7 Party Hostess

"What would do you wear when you call your girls over to hang out?"

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 See you next year!

Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 6 Vacation

Time to kick back and relax!

"What do you wear on vacation?"

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Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 5 Jummah

"Jummah Jamaat is very special to Islam and the sunnah says to wear something simple, clean, and new if you can!"

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Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 4 Date Night

"Share how you can dress up an outfit for a night out with your husband"

Hareem pants and batik vest for a night out!

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Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 3 Work Out Wear

"What do you wear when exercising, going to the gym, or anything to stay active and fit?"

Playing with my 3 years old girl will make me stay active and fit :))

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Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 2 Formal Attire

"Whether it's traditional/cultural, black tie event, weddings, or anything else"

The butterflies crop blazer is made of batik combo from Cirebon, West Java Indonesia. 

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Hijabi Fashion Week 2011: Day 1 Work Wear

"What would you wear in a professional environment?"

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Hijabi Fashion Week

Veil Castle

Shawl - Hijab Edge
Inner - Claro
Bangle -  From Singapore (gift from my sister)
Brooch - Zoya
Top - Mango
Vest - Up2Date 

Sabrina Veil
Inner - Claro
Top - Omara

Shawl - Hijab Edge
Inner - Claro
Top - Le Batik (Batik Gendongan)

Shawl -Claro
Inner - Claro
Bandana - Ciss
Top - Unbranded
Vest - Up2Date

Proud to be One

My support to Citi,
Not in a single second I ever doubt my Citi,
Not in a blink of eyes I ever lost my love to Citi,
Like my CCO has ever said earlier: "We are in this together and together we will overcome this with pride, together we will overcome this challenge".

Let's not just survive, Sir. Let's thrive! We are Citibanker.  Proud to be One Citi...Proud to have You!

Pony Tail Style

Shawl - Hijab Edge
Inner - Claro
Top - Tuneeca
Jegging - Unbranded

Another Gipsy Style

Scarf - Annaqqu
Gipsy Bandana - Hijab Edge
Top - Mango
Vest - Up2Date

The Reunion

My outfit:

Gipsy Shawl - Unbranded

Inner - Claro

Top - Up2Date 

Have a great time, meet my old friends!

My Girl is Ready for the High School

My 9 years old will enter junior high school this year. Yes, she is too young because she is an accelerated student at her elementary school.  Junior high school is a lot tougher than elementary school. The subjects are harder and all of a sudden...I hope SMP Taruna Bakti is the best junior high school for my girl.

Big Bow on My Batik

Scarf - Paris Instant
Inner -  Claro
Top -Unbranded Batik
Pants - Unbranded 

Super fun big bow is quite an attention getter. A fantastic batik blouse!

Ar Rafi Fair (Sysil 1st Opera)

 Glad to see a big big happy smile on her face!

A Little Party for Arla

  

My baby girl is now officially a toddler :))

Does Your Kid Hate Math?

Ask any elementary school student what subject they hate more than any other and the chances are that 9 out of 10 will say Math.  I know my 1st daughter did.  Why do you suppose this is true?
The main reason kids hate Math is that somewhere along the way, they havent quite understood a concept that was presented to them, and, often, before they do understand it, a new concept has been added.  Before long, the child is so overwhelmed, they just five up and, as a result, decided they hate the subject.
I have always believed that most kids can learn just about anything if they are exposed to it using familiar surroundings and techniques and encouraged to proceed at their own pace.
I decided to enroll Sysil to Sakamoto. Briefly, the Sakamoto Math Method consists of three simple basic steps. The first step is analyzing the problem, determining the essential facts from the question, and grasping the relationship of the data to each other. Here, the students organize and co-relate the information systematically in a tabular form. The second step is translating the information gathered in the first step into a linear diagram. The linear diagram will help the students determine and understand the logic behind the calculations that they must do in the next step. In the last step, students write the equations and do the calculations to arrive at the final answer. Using the Sakamoto Math Method, children are trained to grasp the essence of the question and reduce it to a simple diagram formula. Thank God, Sysil can minimize her negative feeling on math now.
Depending on how far behind your child is in Math, and how strong their negative feeling are on the subject, it will take time to bring them back up to a level where they can function well.  Dont give up.  If you hang there, by the end of this school year, your children may be naming Math their favorite subject, rather than their most hated one.

Sysil's 2011 Piano Recital

Sysil has been with Andry Efendy Music Studio for almost a year now and I really see in her eyes she wants to play piano.  She is commited and practice every week for improvement of her lessons.
On Feb 20, 2011 I attended Sysil's Piano Recital.  She has performed well and she is very confident of playing piano.  I am so proud of Sysil, keep it going!